There's No Crying in Baseball

Although this blog doesn't prove it (based on this and previous posts) I am not a crier. I do not cry. But today, and the day before, and the day before I cried. It turns out that running on empty for too long is not good for holding back 'what's-wrong-with-me-mini-breakdowns' in the ladies restroom (or with friends, for that matter).

There is no crying in baseball. -Tom Hanks, A League of Their Own

People ask me how I'm doing and I'm tired of answering 'great' because the truth is, I'm not great. I'm crumbling. Like big chunks of 'watch for falling rock' on the side of a mountain, pieces of me are crashing to the ground.

When a person visits a doctor she looks at the symptoms and gives advice for 'fixing' what's wrong. So I started looking at my symptoms:

  • Symptom 1. My ability to hear and take criticism is low. I have left no time for improving my output. I'm barely fitting in my necessary responsibilities and hoping no one challenges me along the way because I have left no margin for that.
  • Symptom 2. I cry. When I'm low, I cry. Even though I despise my tears, they rain down my cheeks as if to warn me that my emotional health is running in empty. Time to recharge.
  • Symptom 3. I focus on surface content. This is really the first sign that I begin to notice when things are not right. I don't want to be around others and I want to just be... quiet. Still. I don't take the energy or time to really invest in relationships.
Recommended Medicine: Slowing my schedule, running, and laughing. Tonight is a bag of popcorn, Iron Man 2, and Brandon.


Bethel Temple Community Church | October 2, 2010 at 5:38 PM

Trivia. League of Their Own was filmed at Bosse Field in Evansviile, In.. Its the second oldest ball park in the country behind Fenway. Many friends including my father were extras in the crowd and I still have a Madonna signed baseball.

Not a very big deal for Chicago, but a big win for a town in Southern Indiana.

And yes, there's no crying in Evansville.


Hanna | October 2, 2010 at 6:33 PM

Bob! Thanks for the trivia, I have a new found respect for you now that I know you have a madonna signed baseball:)

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